I'm not sure exactly what to write.  But I feel I should say something.  I should let you all know.  I'm lying in my bed right now, typing with my eyes closed.  Tears are wetting my cheeks.  It's not like I haven't faced this sadness.  I've been facing it for months now.  I've even been seeing a therapist to help me through it.  I guess I was a little embarassed to tell you.  Embarassed because I was so proud.  I was so proud to call Ayako my wife.    And now I can't do that.  I can't do that anymore.  We are getting divorced.  My lip is quivering as I write this.  I'm sorry to have to tell you this.  I wish it weren't so.  But, now you at least know why I'm so sad.  I wish I could say it's because of the lousy economy.  But it's not.  It's because I've lost the object of my devotion.  I am so very sad.

Who am I?